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We have been in a process of cleaning out before the boys get here. I am finding pictures of D when he was little, pictures of Bill and me when we were first married, little notes, craft projects, etc. Reminiscing is fun. It can also be sad.

I can never go back. The baby D is gone. The toddler D is gone. The younger me is gone. Poof. But do I really want to go back there? Sometimes I think I do, but I really don’t. My relationship with Jesus was nowhere near as vibrant then as it is today. Going back would mean sacrificing that.

I think about my sweet D. How these boys coming are going to turn his life upside down.  But isn’t our faith like that? Upside down? Less is more. Least is greatest. Empty is full. Death is life. Sometimes turning your life upside down is exactly what Jesus wants you to do.

I cannot hold so tightly to our past that I do not embrace God’s present. I cannot hold so tightly to our past that I do not move into God’s future. The best is yet to come!

Love, Lori

1 Corinthians 1:23 NLT So when we preach that Christ was crucified, the Jews are offended and the Gentiles say it’s all nonsense.

Matthew 20:16 ESV “So the last will be first, and the first last.”

 

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  1. Judy Moody
    Aug 27, 2011 @ 14:46:11

    As a mother I find what you said to be so true. Sometime that little boy who was, but is now your husband is still there for me. I saw him last week when we took him to the doctor. I see him when he is playing with D. D is becoming such a little man that I wish we could go back to that baby too. We have to look forward to the new times. The new babies will cause reflection, but there will be wonderful new memories. I feel afraid of what is ahead, but I know this is God’s plan for your family. The new life that you will give to these babies is going to be wonderful. We will always be there to help however we can.

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  2. Katie Bordeaux
    Sep 05, 2011 @ 08:05:04

    I am so excited for you guys to meet your sweet boys. Yall’s 1.1.10 birthday boy is the one I had for a little while. He has such a sweet disposition and loves to be tickled under his arms. That always started a never ending laugh when he was younger. I am so excited to see pictures on here of y’all holding your sweet boys after such a long wait!
    Katie

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